October 14th, 2004

snowflake

Life Sucks!

Not feeling well. I ended up having to go to lunch with the group to “celebrate” two birthdays in my office. Net total? $29 down the drain (family style and had to chip in for 2 lunches) and I didn’t eat a lot. I’m hot, tired and feeling kind of light headed. I even left before they got around to ordering dessert but at least they brought some leftover Tiramisu back for me. Not that I feel like eating it at the moment.

On one side of me was S and her boss discussing work and on the other side of me the guys were discussing poker. Needless to day I didn’t have much to say at lunch. It sucks not having anything in common with any of the coworkers when you have to go out to lunch every couple of months. At least I won the office pool on J’s losses in “Lost Wages” so I am not actually out any money for lunch.

Right before lunch we had a meeting where the schedule for the next 45 days was laid out. Of course what was announced was I am probably going to have to work part of the weekend that D is here. I’m hoping if I kill myself with work during the week I can minimize the time working, but I will probably have to come in for a few hours on that Saturday.

On top of that I’m going to have to work Veteran’s day and that whole weekend. When I reminded my boss I had planned to go out of town then, she said basically “I’m sorry, but the only thing I can suggest is go this weekend instead.” Of course that doesn’t work because I have to deal with plane tickets, a wedding and life in general. Plus I want to make it a 4 day weekend, which is why Veteran’s day was such a good deal. Now I’m figuring I’ll try to go the next 3 day weekend I have open (If that’s okay with D) which is looking like MLK day (January 17)!!!!

Yes, there are lots of holiday weekends between now and then, but they are mostly mandatory family weekends. Thanksgiving, and Christmas I have to be with the family and New Year’s Day is Yule Revel which I’m helping to cook.

So right now when I all I want to do is curl up in D’s arms and relax I find that work is taking away the little bit of time I get to spend in his presence.
  • Current Music
    Fields of Gold - Sting
Lapis

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So earlier this week I got this email. They’re getting ready to do end of year reviews in January and I have to turn in this questionnaire to S. by COB tomorrow. I’d forgotten about it since I had other things to do. But now I’m stuck. I have 24 hours to respond to the following:

1. What accomplishments did you have during this evaluation period (relative to or in addition to the Performance Planning objectives)?
2. Are there any areas of your performance that could be improved?
3. What additional knowledge and skills would help improve your performance?
4. What are your near-term goals for the next year?
5. Please provide any long-term career goals and be sure to include training or developmental needs that may be necessary to help attain these goals.

So how am I supposed to answer this? I know that S. has problems with me. I’ve constantly had lectures for the last six months on what a horrible job I’ve been doing to the point that I can’t honestly think of one “accomplishment”. All I think of when I think back is all the times I’ve been told I’m not worth the money she’s paying me. Now I’m supposed to say positive things???

My goals for the next year include looking for another job…but I’d love to see how that would go over if I put it down.

Probably only psycocavr will get this reference – I feel like Lucy writing her performance evaluation for Carter and only thinking of bad things to say.
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    apathetic apathetic